Blessings! this is prob a bit long just need some guidance.
Im new to wicca. I was raised as a catholic in a catholic family in a catholic country so not really allowed much access to witchcraft as it is in reality, besides the rubbish sold by the media. we were taught as you know that little TV witches were ok since they were part of fairy tales but real life witchcraft were seriously bad stuff that should under no circumstances be seeked.
Well through the years I Swallowed the things that christianism preaches and never really accepted it as my faith deep inside. I always felt most things were wrong, unfair and judgemental. most ppl would pray set prayers like "Our father" so automatically that they didnt even reflect on the words coming out of their mouth (it was certaily the case with me). As an adult I left my country to live in england and with it my original christian roots. I still respect very much the christians and my family's beliefs but for a few years I lived telling everyone I had no religion at all since I never fit in anywhere . I never felt happy and fulfilled though. HOWEVER I feel in my heart there is something much more powerful to life than what meets the eye and I was unhappy living a life of materialism. I urged to find a dedication to a spiritual path that appealed to my soul.
My whole life felt I had in common with many ideas of spiritual paths like buddhism for example but everytime I went to a temple or a centre I felt ok but never at home.
My nature has always been very free, I always inclined towards what the nature offered me as alternative healings as opposed to conventional medicine. nothing ever made me feel more at ease than the sounds and smells of the nature. I ve been known to sit by the window and stare at a full moon for hours in a dark room, it just gives me an unspeakable sense of nurture, and (oh this is the most strange thing) I always loved halloween, even though its not celebrated in my country and I had no Idea of the wiccan meaning of it.
I dont know how I came across wicca. I never in a consious mind would have picked my first withcraft book since in my ignorant previously christian mind it was devil worshiping so why would I want to read about that?! I
might have come to me in a dream, I really dont remember! I found myself in a bookshop reading a wicca book with no intention at all just curiosity, today I already read about 10 books and the more I read the more it feels like "going home" its like "yes, this is who I am, how did I not know about this b4??!" the biggest confirmation for me was when i first heard the new moon and the goddess protection chants and well, I have no words but you prob know well the feeling. It took me so powerfully I bursted in tears! So I have made a final decision I want to learn all I can about wicca and become a fully dedicated witch. I just dont know where to go from here. Im still learning about different types of wicca.
any advice and guidance from the more experienced ones would be soo valued!
blessings!
MM,
I learnt a lot about Wicca via the Internet, which is how I began on the path. There are also some good books out there. The books written by authors: Kate West, Scott Cunningham and Rae Beth are the ones I would recommend for a new Wiccan, as their writing is clear, concise and gives you the information to make up your own mind.
BB
Meadowsweet
Hi hunny wow your story sounds just like mine, although i have lived here all my life the catholic upbringing is the same, brainwashing is what i call it, catholic school, catholic church, the works and allthough now even at my age i am finally becoming relaxed about where my life and my path are heading. I feel i have been witch all my life and past before, but because of the catholic past i have been afraid to go any further with it. I am now however reading and searching via the net as much as i can.
hi!
i know! ive been reading everything i can put my hands on! and more and more i feel im really in the right direction to find my true self, only somethings i read scared me a little bit and i couldnt really get the point of like in "rebirth of witchcraft" by doreen valiente she says that in the initiation and some rituals they use some sort of physical ordeal to raise energy i think. that is a bit weird for me and honestlly i dont want anyone hitting me thank you!
have you been to rituals and ceremonies yet? i really wanted to go to some specially the celebrations of the sabbats to get more involed and get more of an idea of what it is in practice.
dorp me a line is always nice to meet new people in the same path as you!
blessings