I once had a dream that I was in a room full of people and someone was standing at the front and calling out our names, one by one. Each person had to stand when called and was then given the name of their role in life/job. When I was called I was just told "education". I had this dream some years ago but it has stuck with me, for obvious reasons as it was obviously trying to tell me my "calling" and it felt completely right in the dream.
I am at a crossroads in my life. I have realised that I have spent my whole life underestimating and undervaluing myself massively. I want to change this and am trying to but it is extremely difficult. Maybe I should also post this in the life coach thread, not sure.
The reason I am so bothered is that I get so frustrated with people underestimating me, but it is obviously the message I am giving out and if I improve things, including being true to myself and feel fulfilled in myself and in my potential, then it will probably not keep happening. it is as though i don't know who I am, but at the same time i do!
Education could mean that I should be a teacher, some people have told me I'd be good at it but others wouldn't agree. I know I have an intellect with creativity that is crying out to be expressed. i work as an administrator at a fairly high level but nevertheless this role gets undervalued too and i constantly feel underestimated and frustrated that there is another person inside that no one can see, and people sometimes give the impression that they see me as unintelligent when (without meaning to boast) I am fairly intelligent. It;s the frustration and lack of an outlet, through work essentially I think, that I think I need to deal with in order to be happy. Any help would be appreciated, i seem to have a massive block! I am not confident at work but am more confident outside. i find my office often values people with the "gift of the gab" whether they work or not. It isn't essentially others I want to please, but myself in a way - I just feel insulted by the constant low opinion and lack of belief in me that others show so I somehow need to express something (but don't know what it is) to be my true self to others. I hope this makes sense, it's difficult to explain as I am only just getting to grips with it myself. i don't think education has to mean "teacher" by the way, it can also mean therapist perhaps. I don't know but there is something inside me that can't get out!!:(