Help sought

where do i find these schemes? Google finds nothing like that where I live and i don't really feel strong enough to properly teach people anything. I can't concentrate.

I have thought about moving but i have no money to pay rent and no income.

Dare I say it, Bloke... but perhaps you need to just get out there and GIVE. Do some voluntary work that involves focusing your energies on those even less fortunate than you. Don't tell me that there is not some organisation you can go to, to do that. Be it animal welfare, charity shops, old folks homes, Sally Army, Red Cross, the list is endless. I worked for a while giving free reflexology to cancer patients. It made me feel not only good inside, but lucky to be so healthy and put all my woes into perspective. The same establishment had volunteers who did nothing more than run errands or put fresh flowers in vases. They always need help.

I appreciate ALL responses, but please at least keep up with what has been discussed before.

That seems a little ungrateful - many people are busy at work and getting ready for Christmas and haven't time to scroll through the whole thread. Besides, they've all been very kind to you and are really trying their best.

Star99 - sorry, just read your reply. You HAD kept up. I just thought the reply Bloke gave you was unkind.

And finally, I think the idea about volunteering is great. I also live in a very small town without a car but there are loads of opportunities to help out. There must be 11 charity shops here and the hospital is a short bus ride away. There are also schemes to help both young and older people and sponsored walks and things. I work full time but do stuff on Sunday mornings. Doesn't take long but it is appreciated. Makes me feel better too!

Being a musician is being creative... how wonderful is that. I wish I could create music and always admire those who can. Music raises the vibration, as does singing. Do you find that being creative with your music makes you feel better inside? Even if just for a short time? How about sharing that music with others?

I'm a dancer. I used to work at nursing homes for free to share that dance and to hone my skills. That was many years ago. The old folks loved it. They loved the music, the movement, the colours of my costumes. How about doing something like that for starters? Or teaching what you know on a voluntary basis somewhere, is that not feasible for you?

Yes music is very enjoyable.

I no longer have the software to create music (it was all pirate software anyway). It doesn't work on my pc anymore and to buy it new would cost hundreds.

I don't play a solo/portable (such as an acoustic) instrument either.

Star99 - sorry, just read your reply. You HAD kept up. I just thought the reply Bloke gave you was unkind.

no worries,I was a bit taken aback myself,but we are here to help Bloke,I just hope he gets better soon but its a two way system.

Star99 - sorry, just read your reply. You HAD kept up. I just thought the reply Bloke gave you was unkind.

I don't think it's helpful or positive to call people unkind when they have been nothing of the sort. This serves only to drag the thread down, I see no gain in that course of action.

no worries,I was a bit taken aback myself,but we are here to help Bloke,I just hope he gets better soon but its a two way system.

You had suggested something I had already tried which had been brought up before, then you commented on my apparent lack of willingness to meet people's efforts. That is why I commented on participation. Something I don't feel was said unkindly. Neither was the post rude, abusive or in any way unpleasant.

Yes music is very enjoyable.

I no longer have the software to create music (it was all pirate software anyway). It doesn't work on my pc anymore and to buy it new would cost hundreds.

I don't play a solo/portable (such as an acoustic) instrument either.

Let me tell you a story. My ex was similar to you in that he could create music using software on his computer. He was not a trained musician and played keyboard with two fingers. He did this in the bedroom of his one bedroomed council flat. When I met him he was stony broke, up to his eyes in debt with 3 banks, had letters from bailiffs coming through his door, and had been a drug abuser. Somehow he managed to get the software he needed, and unfortunately, he did use cracked software...but needs must. He had enough drive and determination to do what needed to be done. He cut 5 albums through a small independent record company called Solielmoon. He still gets royalities to this day.

He also took himself to college and studied sound design. He offered swaps with other people, trading his music for tuition, etc. He made ALL his contacts on line. He was many things, but one thing he wasn't was negative. He always looked on the bright side. He never, ever said, I cannot..but always...'I will.' He never said, 'this or that won't happen..' he always maintained that all he desired would one day be his. Basically, he is a prime example of the Laws of Attraction and sheer determination in the face of adversity.

He now lives in London, runs his own sound design company, employs 10 staff, has clients such as Virgin, Bentley, MTV, the list of top notch clients is many. We still stay in touch and remained great friends. He was, and still is, an inspiration for me in the working practice of being positive.

Let me tell you a story. My ex was similar to you in that he could create music using software on his computer. He was not a trained musician and played keyboard with two fingers. He did this in the bedroom of his one bedroomed council flat. When I met him he was stony broke, up to his eyes in debt with 3 banks, had letters from bailiffs coming through his door, and had been a drug abuser. Somehow he managed to get the software he needed, and unfortunately, he did use cracked software...but needs must. He had enough drive and determination to do what needed to be done. He cut 5 albums through a small independent record company called Solielmoon. He still gets royalities to this day.

He also took himself to college and studied sound design. He offered swaps with other people, trading his music for tuition, etc. He made ALL his contacts on line. He was many things, but one thing he wasn't was negative. He always looked on the bright side. He never, ever said, I cannot..but always...'I will.' He never said, 'this or that won't happen..' he always maintained that all he desired would one day be his. Basically, he is a prime example of the Laws of Attraction and sheer determination in the face of adversity.

He now lives in London, runs his own sound design company, employs 10 staff, has clients such as Virgin, Bentley, MTV, the list of top notch clients is many. We still stay in touch and remained great friends. He was, and still is, an inspiration for me in the working practice of being positive.

I have to say I'm not overly comfortable with using dodgy software (especially in these days of pirate crackdown where you could get caught if you download from the wrong source). This stuff is expensive; always has been. The software I got before was from college, probably in much the same way as your ex. But it doesn't work on my pc anymore. It's all dodgy old files I downloaded years ago. I wouldn't even know where to get stuff anymore, never mind whether my pc is actually up to the task of running it. The stuff I did before was done without even a keyboard (of the musical kind).

Where do you suggest I get the tools? Music software is extremely expensive and I have no idea where you'd find dodgy stuff these days - I don't even know if I feel comfortable using such stuff. Edit: I don't even have the core software anymore.

Where do you suggest I get the tools? Music software is extremely expensive and I have no idea where you'd find dodgy stuff these days - I don't even know if I feel comfortable using such stuff. Edit: I don't even have the core software anymore.

To quote the meerkat ad: simples! 😀 Post on freeconomy, as someone may have a copy of legit software or know where to get it cheap.:)

I've just sent a message. It's a good idea. We will see what happens. I think it's unfortunate that software such as this is so expensive (youre looking at clost to £500 for an up to date program). Even then I can't run the new stuff so you'd think the producers would let the older programs be used for free or something. But of course they are no longer supported.

well if you can't run the new stuff, look online for free downloads or trial software -as with having a shufty on music forums.:)

It seems to me that your location in a small village is making this hard for you .. well have you thought about alternatives? Is there a bike knocking about in a shed somewhere that you could use? It is easy to cycle 10 miles with comparatively little effort, this could help widen your search and reach a larger town.
Also, you said you have no income - does the Jobcentre know about you? Might be time to get on that bike and make an appointment, they can also put you in contact with other agencies that can help. They are there to help but you need to be on the radar and you seem to have slipped through the net!

It seems to me that your location in a small village is making this hard for you .. well have you thought about alternatives? Is there a bike knocking about in a shed somewhere that you could use? It is easy to cycle 10 miles with comparatively little effort, this could help widen your search and reach a larger town.
Also, you said you have no income - does the Jobcentre know about you? Might be time to get on that bike and make an appointment, they can also put you in contact with other agencies that can help. They are there to help but you need to be on the radar and you seem to have slipped through the net!

I don't own a bike. I've tried freecycle for many months but noone has a bike to spare (and everyone wants one).

Well, we could all have a go at manifesting one for you, bloke. All together everyone, think bike.

I don't own a bike. I've tried freecycle for many months but noone has a bike to spare (and everyone wants one).

I'm surprised - during the months that I myself received daily emails from my local freecycle group (have cancelled the updates now as too many things in the inbox) - I saw offers of various sorts of bikes at least weekly, if not a few times a week. Perhaps if your immediate area is quite small, it may be useful to join a larger neighbouring freecycle group which has more things on offer.
Good luck.

Masha

So Bloke apart from getting side tracked onto music, bicycles and diverting your mind from what is happening by contemplating doing voluntary work, have you made any progress within yourself to identify the root cause of your problems?