I'm new here my name is Denise nice to me everybody I'm not sure if I'm doing this right or wrong but well here goes nothing I wanted to talk about something called did it's dissociative identity disorder it's just something that you would call or refer to better known as personality disorder and I have that I am 27 years old I am a single Mommy I don't work I'm looking for a job but I have really bad anxiety problems and I have also different personalities so it's very hard for me to fit into the mundane world and I just feel like I don't fit in I don't belong like I need to be somewhere else but then other times I feel so vibrant so happy full of life like this is exactly where I need to be so it kind of sucks having to live with so many personalities..... well I'm not even sureif I did this properly if anyone would like to talk or share a little more I'm here.. n if I did this all wrongI do apologize as well thank you
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Hi Denise,
Welcome to HP!
Your open & honest introduction to yourself is most perfect.
This thread is yours to express yourself as you wish.
No one arrives at D I D without many extraordinary experiences & it is not surprising that life as others only ever know it is some what mundane to you.
You've come to the right place to share your anxieties & seek strategies to manage them.
Or in deed share with others your strategies.
You are an expert in your experiences & there is no hierarchy here. We are all equal to each other & our only aim is to support each other.
Love & light
Teresa
I'm new here my name is Denise nice to me everybody I'm not sure if I'm doing this right or wrong but well here goes nothing I wanted to talk about something called did it's dissociative identity disorder it's just something that you would call or refer to better known as personality disorder and I have that I am 27 years old I am a single Mommy I don't work I'm looking for a job but I have really bad anxiety problems and I have also different personalities so it's very hard for me to fit into the mundane world and I just feel like I don't fit in I don't belong like I need to be somewhere else but then other times I feel so vibrant so happy full of life like this is exactly where I need to be so it kind of sucks having to live with so many personalities..... well I'm not even sureif I did this properly if anyone would like to talk or share a little more I'm here.. n if I did this all wrongI do apologize as well thank you
Hello and welcome here Denise
look around, watch people, observe them what they say do, act and live like...you may find everyone is a jumble of different personalities. Every single one of the billions on this planet. So many masks, so many personas....so many personalities. Humans are scrambled lot.
Most don't get this awareness because it is subtle. Those who are sensitive can see this in themselves and it's a hard thing to see.
Dissociative identity disorder. I could tick all the boxes that you mention in your post. Millions can. I as a child felt all that you mention. I was fortunate enough that nobody knew about such a disorder and they did not know how to label it. Otherwise something that was in the hindsight, a marvelous blessing would have been corrupted by others' labels, opinions, diagnosis and remedies right or wrong. I could easily have qualified for a wide range of conditions from dyslexia all the way to D I D. Luckily nobody encouraged me to dwell on it.
people are different with each interaction they have in life whether with people, events or emotions. Most are dysfunctional. So don't just look at surface and start feeling how everyone else is doing great and coping and settled in themselves....most are in the same boat as you find yourself in.
I do want to encourage you to allow whatever your whole package is. As you start doing that...you will find it's a marvelous package and would not swap it with anyone. Please don't sit there dwelling on how it is within your mind. Your mind is a marvelous machine...a self fulfilling prophecy. Where you pour yourself in mentally becomes massive. You start dwelling internally on problems, challenges, issues....see them accelerate beyond control.
You are a mum of a child. He or she are growing so fast. Time will not come back...pour most of energy into yourself and the child. You will both nourish each other like no amount of therapy, counseling, self help can.
.embrace the contradictions within. We are all torn apart inside. That's how you become whole. But what's the need to become Whole, if you can learn to enjoy whatever life is presenting to you. You have gotten yourself in the loop of cerebral desire to get over something that is again cerebral. Reconnect with physicality of you. Touch, smell, breathe, walk, cuddles....emphasize more on the physical functionality of your experience.
Mind is clutched by what is wrong, it is what mind is all about. Consciously lay out a direction that merges with the flow of life. Feel strong within to chose the Direction of your own destiny. If you can't do it, who will? Trust yourself to be real. Sit down and relax with your child more and more on daily basis. Pour into your child all the energy that stays locked into this observation and all that is attached to it. It will change into an urge to give love more and more and more.
Relax, relax, breathe and more easily and some more.....relax
Internally stay open to easeier way to live
Much Love
Denise, I truly agree with both post. Your honesty is so wonderful. Please consider to reach out. Just know my thoughts are with you. I am so grateful that the tribe of great thinkers and kind people on this forum has seen you out reach. Be blessed.