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Hi Trinityx

I won't pretend to understand you're feelings but...

I could cry at how pathetic I feel..

then go ahead and cry...it's such a wonderful release and will help the body to heal itself!

Jx

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Trinity,
I'm so sorry you are feeling bad. Who told you to stop taking your meds? It may not be the right thing to come off them at the moment.
Can you see you GP and discuss it with them.
Perhaps you need to tackle the underlying issues before you stop. Some people have a chemical imbalance which they cant help and need to take the meds.

If you were feeling better and able to cope whilst taking them, perhaps you should continue until you've finished your degree, its a very stressful time and you need to be kind to yourself.

Lots of love to you and hope you feel better soon.

Jan X

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hiya Jan!

I came of them late July-simply because I didnt feel I was getting anywhere with them-by that I mean that they were doing their job but I had to come off them sooner or later and stop being dependant on them.
They suppressed my anxieties so much -I wasnt even nervous going into exams and stuff-I new that that wasnt a natural way to live (we all need a bit of adrenalin now and then!!)
Counselling just seemed to go around and around and I could see no marked improvement-just tiredness after sessions!
The meds themselves made me tired and I was sleeping alot.

I do honestly believe that NOT taking them is the right thing for me. I just feel so annoyed that my symptoms have returned..I forgot how nice it was to speak up in class and not go bright red[:@]

I think i need to rethink my life and make changes (exercise, diet, relaxation etc..) All have been slipping recently-because I feel stressed! haha! It is a vicious circle!

Thanks Jan!

Tx

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Hi Trin

It can take up to a year to feel better after coming off AD's, I was only on them for a while and took myself off them as I knew I had to face my problems head on, in as shorter time as possible. I was yo-yoing for about a year afterwards and still haev fazes of feeling down and depressed.

Talk to your doctor, explain the situation, my sister has to go on top up sessions once or twice a year to get through the rough patchs, but if you feel that you don't want to take them dont. It may take a while but you will start to see a different you coming out, also trying to change diet, exercise etc is a great way, best thing I fould when depressed was a good workout!

It is hard when all the same things come back, I can understand that, and really hope that you can get through this and as Jay says crying does release so much!

Hope you feel better soon.

With love
m

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Cheers Maria..

Its the blushing thing that really makes me anxious I think-it really gets me down..
It was great when I was on the meds tho! I could speak to anyone!

Tx

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Hiya T

I agree with the counselling thing.....its just chatting at the end of the day and you need to find a method of dealing with these things as and when they crop up......have you considered EFT? it is a bit strange but does work!!!!! there is loads about it on the mind therapies forum....

T
x

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Its funny but EFT keeps 'popping up'!!

Maybe I should give it a go!

I havent read that much about it-I did a bit when I was trying to stop smoking (which this week I have to say I have failed miserably-soz Arne[&o])

Thanks T.
Tx

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Hi Tx

Having been where you are now I can sympathise very much. I have just posted some articles on my own website. It may be of interest to you to see how I coped with my gender confusion and depressions and the anti-depressants I was taking for nearly 20 years. I have not completly healed as yet but am continuing to move towards that place of safety and light. Only you can face your fears and demons. Only you can do all the hard but necessary work to find peace. Only you can shake the very cells that keep all that anger and resentment and guilt trapped within them. Others can help you along the way and support you when you feel the need. If you feel you would like to, send me a PM and we can talk further and perhaps in more depth than would be appropriate on this forum.

I have many T-Shirts, seen the film many times and read the book a 1000 times over but still need to get to the bottom of the well of fear. I am doing this with the help of June (Talisman). She is a wonderful, loving person.

Colin

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Hello Trinity I do empathise.I came off Ad's earlier this year and it is only now do I realise just how much emotion they were suppressing in me.

I was on them, on and off for about 7 years, I found they calmed me down and anger an emotion I don't like, well they kept that in too.

These past few months haven't been the easiest in my life but one thing, I feel ME for the first time in a long time. Slowly I face my demons and once one can do that life gets better.

Only you will know though if you are ready to come off them.

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Hi Trinity,

If anybody comes to me for smoking cessation who is also on antidepressants, I find now that it is better to deal with the depression first, while liasing with their doctor so they can come off the AD's safely, and then deal with the smoking. So please don't beat yourself up about the smoking, you really need to deal with the depression first to ensure complete success. This is because smoking can act as an antidepressant and so when the smoking goes and the depression is still there, it is hard for some people to cope. Exceptions do happen, eg when there is a life-threatening reason why the smoker should stop.

I hope this helps 🙂

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BTW, sorry I called it depression, but you know what I mean. Hang on in there girl, you're probably much stronger than you think 🙂

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Thank you Colin, Celtic Lady and Suzanne,

I definately know that deep down, stopping the AD's was the right thing to do.
It was like I was hiding behind my moms skirt!!!

I think my problem at the moment is that I am soo stressed (lots of stuff going on with my Mom and dad, last year at uni stress, placement stress and new clients stress) and I am just wanting to hide behind my Moms skirt again!

Colin-thank you very much for the kind offer of an ear. It is nice to know you are there. At the mo Im just gonna plough thru it and not 'feed' it so to speak. (does that make sense??!!)

Suzanne you are totally right, I am stronger than I give myself credit for.
I think I need to start to focus on my strengths and give myself credit for my achievements...

I was just having a really bad day I think...I tend to go thru extremes! When I am feeling down-my god am I down!! Sometimes I just need to step back and look at the bigger picture-or write/type it thru.

The smoking thing is really getting to me aswell.
I think my main problem is that for my work placement I am going to be working in palliative care.
I keep thinking 'how can I treat someone with 4 weeks left on this earth, whilst I am smoking and putting my health under risk???

I should be grateful for my healthy body.....what a mess...

Tx

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Trin

We will EFT you to within an inch of your life on Saturday eve :D!

I know exactly what you mean about the AD's. I feel like my emotions have been turned down to 20% while I was on them and now I'm off it feels like I'm in overload. I'm filling up at TV adverts and I want to slap people for daring to walk in front of me! Celtic Lady, I know what you mean about the anger, I'm soooooooo mad about everything, especially at myself for not just accepting that it is going to take time to get back on an even keel. I think I also need to accept that I em a very emotional person but I've done a lot to convince myself that this is something I need to smother

The thing is Trin I can't imagine you ever getting nervous about talking to people. You always seem so confident! Funny, smart, attractive. Madness!

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Are u talking about me?????

That is NOT how I feel-u are too kind! lol!

Cant wait for my EFT thrashing Sat!!!

I too have supressed the emotions-think it comes from childhood when we werent really permitted to express ourselves (happy or sad really-Ill tell u more on Sat!)

Cheers my prickly pear!!:)

Tx

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Yay Lyssa you beat me to it.

Hiya Trin. I'm with Lyssa on this, you're gonna have a whole bunch of us around on Saturday and we're all gonna need to practice the new fangled EFT thing we're learning.

There'll be that many of us we can take a tapping point each. 😀

Love and Reiki Hugs

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oooo Im really excited now!!!!

Cheers G!

Tx