Clare

hi all

im sorry iv'e not been on here im having an absolute horrible the pain has got so much worse never thought i'd ever be like this iv'e had suicidel thoughts it's that bad of course i would never do it it's just that the pain is so bad iv'e had my meds increased i'm on oxycontin and oxycodone and others, im having my scan later on today iv'e become incontinent since having fusion my surgeon said that i will need another as im sure i told u my last op was 11 hrs and he couldn't do the other discs but i also have sacral joint something or other, i can barely walk now falling quite a lot i still try to manage taking my little boy to school which is only round the corner my frien comes to help me, i still can't sit on sofa so i go to bed at 5 to watch tv and spend time with my little boy, the older kids are really hurting i didn't realise how much so i try not to show how much pain im in.

hope you all are well Angela my no changed i'll pm you xxx

Dear Clare

I am so, so sorry to hear you are having such difficulty and pain. My heart goes out to you. Life can be so very unfair at times. You are doing so well to cope with this all, and to have children to cope with too makes it so tough - but also inspiring.

Sending you Love, Light and Healing if that is a help.

I know it was hoped the last op had sorted things, but obviously not. I do so hope you can be sorted soon.

hi all

well my scan was not the pleasant of things plus it was at 7:00 at night, the lady couldn't give me results all she said was that i'm in a bad way and that surgeon should phone me.

if it is the case of having another fusion then i would prefer not to have it before xmas although i'm in horrendous pain i'm scared because of what happened last time. xxx

Dear Clare,
I was stupidly hoping that no new was goods news, my heart goes out to you. How awful, please please don't give up. You sound so low it's hard to know what to say to make you feel better. Sending lots of good wishes and reiki xxxxx

Aww thanks for your kind words means a lot.

I will keep you updated.

Sorry to have been so long replying to you post of 10th December but we were away. You mention you would pm me but I have not received it. Not sure if something went wrong or you forgot.

I wish with all my heart that you have some improvement in 2014. I know you must be dreading another op but I guess there is no alternative.

Please, please try to keep your spirits up with your family, pets and many friends.

love, Angela

Hi,

How are things now Clare?

Hopehasgone, or hopeisjustaboutreturningifitwerenotforthesetbacks

Aww thanks for your kind words means a lot.

I will keep you updated.

Hi Clare,

How are things now. It would be great to get an update.
Keep strong. Hope all is well.